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JADE: couldnt shake that feeling for a while
JADE: it felt like some grand unseen rules were being broken
JADE: rules i barely understood the purpose of but knew well enough through exposure
JADE: ones i had never bothered to question but had known my whole life 
JADE: that the actions i was taking alone in a house full of stuffed corpses had made me different in ways i didnt quite get 
JADE: and like that i became an outsider to my own existence
JADE: in a way totally different from the ways i was before
JADE: thats really scary eheh
JADE: but if you want i can help you through it all! 
JADE: we can have you fit and fresh and totally girled up by the moment  
JOHN: uhh...
JADE: changing my name and handles online and redrawing all of my icons 
JADE: thankfully none of the trolls ever gave me shit for it 
JADE: they were only really mean to me for other reasons >:/
JADE: like prototyping bec and ruining our session. 
JADE: even though that was vriskas fault!
JADE: anyway yes! its totally different 
JADE: its a big big change!
JOHN: can you stop?
JOHN: if it's going to be a whole ordeal... i'd rather not. 
JOHN: it's just wearing a dress. i like it.  
JOHN: it feels floaty and comfortable, and...
JADE: and? 
JOHN: and maybe, if i want a nice hat to go with.
JOHN: that's all it has to be! 
JOHN: i don't have to change. 
JOHN: it's just normal to not really like what gender you're born into anyway, right? 
JANE: Right. 
JADE: right 
JADE: but you know thats an option too right? XP
JOHN: i don't think you're getting what i'm laying down here!
JOHN: i know about gender, i'm not stupid. 
JOHN: i know about non binary and trans gender and all that stuff!
JOHN: but not every thing has to be such a federal fucking issue!!!!
JOHN: i don't remember you ever giving dave sprite a big "are you sure youre ready to be a girl which you definitely are" talk when he started floating around in ghostly mini skirts.
JADE: ... are you being serious right now ._.
JOHN: as serious as i ever can be! 
JADE: sigh
JOHN: ...
JADE: ... 
JADE: unclench your jaw
JADE: i guess its a secret not worth keeping anymore
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[ manifested in the brain of victoria lacroix ]